Hello Journal. I’m gonna try to journal on my iPhone tonight today feels hard and slow because I stayed up late and drank last night. Usually when that happens I have a sort of depressive slow day the next day.

I think meditation class is going well. I’m looking forward to having that in my life for the next eight weeks. To keep me in check while the semester goes on.

I’m so excited for my new computer to get here. I can play some simple windows games like Undertale. Or whatever. Maybe even some shooters so I can game with a mouse.

I don’t want to fall into the trap of thinking that this week long break can spill over into the semester. I mean of dad wasn’t here I’d be banging the books real hard sticking to a proper schedule. But I guess I’m squeezing all the fun and relaxation out of these waning days as much as I can before I buckle down. And I will buckle down. With guitar. With daily pomos with daily foam rolling.

I preordered the switch and Zelda. I’m excited about that. I doubt I’ll have time to play but I want it. I want it day one. Nintendo has given me so much smile and joy during the years and I want them to be around forever.

I wish I ate my more fullness of food today. I didn’t eat enough. I should have eaten more. I do have a lower caloric limit for today since I’m not exercising as much. And we did a shorter evening walk tonight. And I was meditating for a while in the morning. So is was just sitting for most of that time.

The best part about video games is the interactivity. The new Zelda looks so huge but I’ll give it a real good shot.

I’ll spend much of my Spring break running around Hyrile. Hyrule

I’m hungry but there isn’t a lot of food that I want to eat right now. I need to go to bed and wake up and go for a four mile run tomorrow. I’m scared about my left leg. I’m feeling a familiar pain even though my heart rate was telling me other things. I was running pretty hard and it was telling me that I was well within my proper zone.

I was really happy getting the chance to talk with my friends in depth last night.

It’s gonna be really nice eating some good food for lunch tomorrow. Or was it dinner? I think dad said we’re getting dinner the four of us.

I don’t regret this decision to not focus on dating this year but I think I’ll still sign up for that Cupid’s Chase this year.its only $30 and could be fun! I could go and talk to all the tall ladies I think that’s gonna have to be my new tactic. Not to be weird and creepy but to find people that don’t care about optics like that

I can’t wait to Play Zelda And the new MARIO And dishonored 2 And my new MacBook Pro it’s gonna be so fast and the screen is gonna look so nice! And it’s gonna be so fast and I’ll be able to dual boot Windows and I’ll probably have to asp buy Office 2016 to have Windows office

I had girl on the brain so much during meditation this morning

Maybe I’ll have egg and ramen again tomorrow after therapy

I wanna masturbate so badly today. I can’t jerk off until Tuesday. I can wait. It’ll be worth it.

I only have two days of classes this coming week. Well three really. I have class on saturdays.

I have to keep writing on my schedule. And building my brand. And recording. Life is gonna be different.

All o van thinks bout tonight are blpwjobs and Michele goddammot.

I want GFF7 remake and kingdom hearts 3

I want the best food I want freedom I want joy I can find those things within myself

I am using mnemonics I’m gonna kill the slurriness I’m not gonna let them steal my happiness I’m gonna leave the cave Fuck living a familiar life I’ve got a vision for how my year and life are gonna be I’m important and I have important things to say I’ve got a whole bunch of perseverance

I can’t wait to start my acting class again Next week is the start of my real schedule from now until May Minus therapy

(manually moved here from Day One on 29-Oct-2023)