• dropped out of college twice(?)
• took a literal ten years to get my accounting degree that I don’t wanna do anything with
• still feel real stupid about not getting first tech job after finishing my Codesmith coding bootcamp in Jan 2021. I stopped talking to my classmates from that program. They all got jobs
• I struggle with doing laundry and dishes so much if I’m not on the phone with a friend. Some of these piles are still pre-July
• my estranged schizophrenic mother’s eldest sister helps me A LOT financially and I feel so guilty and shameful about this privilege
• I still struggle with self-criticism about being American-short (5’5”/165cm) and brown (Filipino)
• I kinda hope my estranged un-medicated schizophrenic mom dies while her nine siblings are still alive so they can do all that death logistical stuff